calling

By Thursday, October 1, 2015 0 0

Of course the word would be “calling” today, such a rich and meaningful word for a girl chasing after her own calling; and of course the writer’s block would persist.

I persist too.

I’ve been in a battle lately, but God is faithful. He is faithful to give me a role and a duty as a discussion leader at BSF so that I do not neglect time with him, which I have been tempted to do because I don’t want to hear from Him if it is not my will (petulant, I know), and He is faithful to speak to me through that study anyway. His call is a whisper, right now.

Set aside your insecurities, and remember Who I Am.

It is a slow process, this time, but I am familiar with slow processes.

Paul wrote, in one of the most confusing chapters in all of scripture (in my opinion), [from the Amplified Bible]

For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable [for He does not withdraw what He has given, nor does He change His mind about those to whom He gives His grace or to whom He sends His call].

This is a promise I hold on to. I love that word, irrevocable. The image it conjures in my mind is a very formal document marked with an official seal of approval. All God’s gifts and promises and my call to share the Gospel in Spain written with swoopy letters and flowery language, and an enormaous blood (literally) red wax stamp.

Sorry, Satan. It’s irrevocable.

God Answers Prayers

By Monday, June 8, 2015 0 0

Last year, for the big 30, I invited all our friends to join us for dinner at my favorite Spanish restaurant in Seattle, Harvest Vine. I’ve celebrated a few birthdays there with brunch, but the tapas dinner was pretty extravagant. My friends are great and they humored me. This year, I wanted to give back. So, I hosted my gal pals for tapas and a Noonday Trunk Show. Amazing jewelry and accessories made by incredibly talented artisans (many of them women) around the world, many of whom would be in poverty without the work they receive through their cooperatives. It’s a neat organization and the stuff is beautiful too!

Completed 31 trips around the sun today. I have loved God, the creator of the sun and the earth on which I take my trips around it, more than half my life this year. Finally, Jesus and I have been walking together longer than I was walking away from Him. The flesh says, and so shouldn't I be further along in this great spiritual process? Shouldn't I have some of these important things like selflessness and not grumbling and trusting the sovereign God of the universe with my future nailed? How funny we use that term, nailed, when we talk about things we've perfected. I can't make anything perfect. Not my days, not my children, not my home, certainly not myself. Yet the one who perfects, He did it with nails. On the cross, all my sins were nailed there with Jesus. Upon Jesus! Jesus nailed it, so I don't have to. Wow. I want to GROW in the grace and knowledge of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Then I will be who I truly am. #birthday #birthdaymusings #godisgood

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I had a birthday wish I intended to share here, and in a prayer letter, but our family got struck with a couple of bugs and all our priorities shifted. I felt that I could not make a phone call, send an email, or keep a support appointment because we were all sick with colds, ear infections, and most recently, tummy bugs. My wish was 70% support. By mid-May, I had given that up, because we had made no progress.

It's beautiful here. #pnw #susannajane

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Yet, God answered my prayers and fulfilled my wish anyway! Because of new support and a decrease in our requirements, we are now 70% supported! This was a true confirmation of our calling. I never doubt our calling personally, but sometimes I try to see the writing on the walls that constantly seem to be in our way. But God confirmed our calling in the most tangible way.

Then, Austin was very sick with a stomach virus for a long time. After a week, I was asking for prayers on Facebook and from our small groups and begging God to give him energy, an appetite, and a sunny disposition. My friends told me they were praying for Austin with their children. They would say, “we’ve been praying! How is Austin” and I would tentatively say, “he’s improving, we think!” Well, this weekend he seemed on the mend and today he has eaten every meal, played just the right amount, and just been his generally sunny self.

God answers prayers!

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While I’m Waiting {Missional Music Monday}

By Monday, April 13, 2015 0 0

Today was a support deadline to attend Field Prep Seminar. It will pass without any fanfare because a couple weeks ago we confirmed an invitation to speak at a church the weekend we would have traveled. We are really looking forward to serving this church by helping at a youth event and sharing our heart for Spain on two occasions, and now we have set our sights on the November FPS and a January departure. We share a bit about that in our latest prayer letter.

Today I am writing to share how God has been encouraging me. Perhaps you too have been struggling with discouragement, even depression. Perhaps you too have questioned what God is doing, why He is allowing certain difficulties or remaining silent as you pray. I am disappointed, discouraged, and also confused. The call to Spain is as strong as ever, but in spite of our efforts, it seems we are called to wait right now, while God does other important work. This is not a new phenomenon for God’s followers, I know. But when I compared (WARNING!) myself to other missionaries, I can’t help but feel that something is wrong; that we’ve done something wrong. Perhaps we have. It’s inevitable because we’re sinful people. But God is still sovereign and He is at work. I can’t count all the ways the timing has been right up until this moment and I know that in hindsight I’ll feel the same way about this moment too. So how do I get my heart synced up with what my mind knows is true?

I have camped out in the Psalms the last few weeks, because God shows Himself praiseworthy there and I need to praise God when I am questioning Him. My mind knows the stories of His provision – in scripture and in my own life, He has been faithful. But when it is difficult to trust Him even when I remember how trustworthy He is, the Psalms have an answer. God. Is. Bigger. Than. My. Problem.

Psalm 42 is a favorite of mine at times like this. The first part of the Psalm reminds me of my daughter and singing As the Deer to her as a baby while I battled for joy during a bout with post-partum depression, which God brought me from triumphantly. The second part gives me a much needed perspective shift.

Finally, two songs I heard yesterday were like messages from God. I hope you’ll find them encouraging too. Matt Waller’s “While I Wait” and Sidewalk Prophets’ “Help Me Find It.” Both videos below include the lyrics.

Harvests {Day 27}

By Tuesday, October 28, 2014 0 0

Sometimes when I am raising my eyebrows at the mountain of support we still have to raise to get to the field and asking God to do His thing and call people to partner with us, I remember that He has multiple harvests to bring in. Not that the number limits Him in any way, but my perspective shifts when I remember the bigger picture.

First in my mind, there’s the harvest of generous people, the Church, who must fund missions. We’re always on the lookout for people who want to be part of what God is doing in missions around the world, and we pray that God would prompt people to give generously and sacrificially to missions for the sake of the Gospel around the world.

The only reason God even has to call such people to join our team is because we answered a call of a different kind: the call to serve. So while we are traveling around, sharing how dark it is in Spain and how God has called us to shine the light of Jesus there, we represent two great needs: our need for support, and the world’s need for missionaries to share the Gospel. While we are praying that God would call people to partner with us financially so that we can go, God may also be using our story to call others to serve Him in missions. Indeed, a primary focus of ours should be calling people to live missionally wherever they are or may be called!

Simultaneously, God is drawing people to Himself who have turned from Him or who have never met Him, through the Good News.

I must get out of the way. God has work to do! His sole purpose is to bring glory to Himself, and He does it by simultaneously calling people to eternity with Him through Christ, calling people to eternal reward from Him by serving Him in missions, and calling people to share in the fruit of the labor done by missionaries by supporting them.

Good thing He is big enough for the job.

31 Stories of Preparing for the Mission Field at Seasoned with Salt // theduryees.com